PINK
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strawberries, cherry tomatoes, watermelon, steak, roses, jello, velvet, red bull

When I was ten years old I went every Wednesday to an afternoon drawing class at the Israel Museum. My family was very religious back then and I was the only girl in drawing class wearing long skirts, long sleeves, and pulled-up socks. I wanted to ask my parents if–only on Wednesdays–I could put my gym pants in my backpack to wear after school. In the end I didn’t ask them but settled in my mind on keeping my skirt but rolling down my thick socks. When school was over I would go to the bakery to buy a sesame roll, roll down my socks in a spot where no one could see me, and begin my one-hour walk to the museum. I would arrive early to sit on Jenny Holzer's bench. It said: “Some days you wake and immediately start to worry nothing in particular is wrong. It’s just that the suspicion that forces are aligning quietly and there will be trouble.”

ORANGE
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sweet potatoes, beta carotene, papaya shake, dried apricots, pumpkins, tic tac

He got a three-bedroom apartment and a stipend from the Yeshiva. After the lung transplant the sound of the machines kept me from sleeping. I switched rooms with my sister - she moved in with her and I stayed with my brother and other sister. Between the rooms there was a bathroom about my size. I would take my left foot and press it against the corner, where the two walls meet above the toilet. Then I would take my right leg and lodge it in the second corner. My hands were on the opposite wall and I would spread them to the right and left corner. I would hang above the toilet, horizontally, and listen to them through the walls.

BLUE
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figs, blueberries, macaroons, circulatory disorder, fish, blue socks, the sea

He would eat an olive or a date and keep the pit in his mouth. He would move it around to feel its bumps with his tongue, have it graze against his teeth. It made him feel he had the possibility of a tree inside his body; he could touch it with his tongue, it was there. He wouldn't talk much or scream because he tried to leave the pit in his mouth. Sometimes, during his sleep the pit would fall out of his mouth and later, when he woke up, he couldn't find it. Other times he would swallow it. Occasionally, it would get lost during sex. He would then go to find another pit that would stay in his mouth. In the tunnel road in Jerusalem when he was in the car with his sister on a Saturday night the pit fell out. He saved his sister but was sad for the guy that was shooting them (he was politically active). I came back from Australia to Jerusalem to look for the pit, but I never had a thing for pits and I never liked his sister.

YELLOW
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french fries, dijon mustard, corn, lemonade, sugar free mango sorbet, lions

When Yochay was five years old he forgot and wore his new light-up shoes to the synagogue on Friday night when you are not allowed to use any electronics. All evening he concentrated on not putting weight on the shoes so not to turn on the lights, and on the walk back home too. On the third day of my army service in the all-girls course the girl who was the first weekly volunteer fell with her head against my chair during class and I saw bubbles coming out of her mouth when she stopped breathing. I imagined I had lights in my shoes on a Friday night and walked away as quietly as I could.

YELLOW
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raisins, bananas, turmeric, yolk, hepatitis, pineapples, cumin, sauerkraut, the sun

She died because she couldn't stand the body odor of the kid whose lungs they put inside her. He was a good kid from a nice family, who donated his organs after the car accident. When we got the call in Jerusalem that she was getting his lungs at the Children’s Hospital in St. Louis, we stayed up all night reciting Psalms until the operation ended, and during the year of recovery too. But it's impossible to have someone inside you, when you can’t stand their smell.